There is a Certain Calmness with Doing the Work

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I find it interesting that my job title is User Experience Strategist. At least that is what I do to earn a living. I consider my "career", or life's work, to be an Artist. In my “day job” I make websites more useful. I help clients complete their visions and goals and help their customers have an easier time navigating the websites. I find the title User Experience Strategist can also help in my desire to be a full time artist - my desire to live from my creative space. After all, we all want to be a participant in a web of our own User Experience.

Recently, I was inspired by a talk with Jared Leto at the New York Times as he spoke of his multi-faceted career (link below). He spoke of all of the different things he had his hands in, from running media companies, to creating, directing and producing videos/films, making art, acting, making music, and finally, touring with his band, 30 Seconds to Mars. The list seems to go on. He is a true renaissance man for sure. But more than that, and the most inspiring piece of the interview for me was his openness about his doubts. When he questioned himself – where he thought he was and where he wanted to be, if his audience would get his direction, his creations, etc., he said (paraphrasing here), that in his times of doubt he did what he knew he could do. He sat back down, amongst the crazy thinking, and created.

There is power in going back to your golden thread of what you are here to do.

For Leto, it is making music or art. It is the core of what brings his other enterprises to the surface. For me it is making art and all of the process, seeking and discovery that goes into it. It is just a part of who I am. I recently returned from a month long trip to California and I have a deep desire to return. I fell in love with Malibu. I live on the beach here in south Florida and it has been my teacher so it is no surprise that I was pulled into the ferocious beauty of the Pacific Ocean. Since I left my job almost two years ago to do my own thing and consult, I have reconnected with a personal freedom that has been a huge source of energy. That energy comes in waves of good and overwhelming doubt. So I sit and do the work. Sometimes it is this blog, sometimes it is fixing my website, but mostly it is my art. It centers me. Makes me find my still point. And it gives me a sense of forward momentum. When I think I don’t deserve Malibu, or success in my art or the other myriad thoughts of doubt and incompleteness, I sit and do the work. And sometimes that is enough.

I wanted to share these thoughts and his video as I am battling my desire to head to Malibu (living in the future) and learn what s/he has to teach me there and my need to be fully present. Each day brings a new layer of finding the dynamic between wanting to claw your way to “success” and living fully present in the now and being open to what is next – actively surrendering. Somewhere in between there is the calmness in doing the work.

One more thing to note about learning who I am. My friend says I should be more Sasha Fierce and I think I am more Lou Reed with a sprinkling of Ziggy Stardust. So maybe Sasha will show her way but I like the edge lyrics of Reed and the ironic flash of Ziggy. I am a Jersey girl, after all.

~b

Video of Jared Leto and Times Talk --> Click Here

 

 

 

 

Do we Get a Mile Marker for our Goals?

 

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We can't measure happy and yet so many adults answer "I want to be happy" when asked, "What do you want to be when you grow up?". Well what does that mean? Everyone, at some point, wants that. So now is the time to work it out. Write something down. Concrete visualizations. Not digital. If there is something in a magazine, tear it out and put it someplace that will remind you of the emotion you were working through when it caught your eye.  Working through the day - whether it be your own time or someone else's time - should create productive action. I always said I wanted to make art and when asked what I want to do, I always reply "make art". I already do that. So what is the next question? Do I want to do it 24/7? Move around the country and spend time 4 months of the year making it? 12 months? What structures do I have in place to pay the bills? How can I build in free time to think and grow and push through the monotony to find the rare sublime moments? 

It it comes down to perseverance, as usual. But honestly, more than that, it comes down to asking the big question and taking the answer apart into microscopic details to determine how to build that path. It comes down to really finding an answer. Not the hallway equivalent to "how are you?", "I'm fine" exchange that stays 10,000 feet in the air amongst coworkers or strangers. We need ground in this answer. In this headspace. We each are completely unique, so what does that point if view become? Time to get pondering, then writing, then building...

sat nam, 

-b